Oh, Canada.



I've been in Toronto, Canada since Sunday night sorting out my UK Ancestry Visa, which thankfully was approved and was mailed back to me yesterday. I am staying with the lovely Crystal and Luke and my time here has been a good opportunity to reflect on things. For the last four months or so, I've been watching the allowable working time on my UK Holiday Maker's Visa tick down to almost nothing and though I've always known the Ancestry option was there, it was still a big, scary mystery. You actually have to apply from the Visa from within Canada, and they take your passport away, which is scary. My life is in London now - a boyfriend I adore, my flat, my things - and the feeling of being unable to go 'home' was terrifying (especially given that they tell you the Visa will take between five and 50 working days to process). The experience has given me a new appreciation of the UK. For all my griping about their funny ways (and my goodness, there are some strange habits and customs), it has slipped from becoming a place I am staying to a place I am living. Now when I tag a post to 'homesick', I am no longer referencing Saskatchewan.

So now I have my visa and I am good to work and live in the country for five years and for some reason I still feel incredibly panicky. I've been worried about this Visa for so long and I am still worried, but now it's about something less tangible. I'm sure the fact that I've spent the last day or so reading The Wit of the Staircase by the brilliant but crazy Theresa Duncan isn't adding to my sense of security.

Someone say something reassuring.

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5 Comments:

Anonymous said...

You're just feeling disconnected because you are so far away. It will be ok because the hard part is over. You don't know me, but I know you (I read this blog a lot) and I promise. x

Paul said...

Everything will be brilliant.

Adrienne said...

I love your blog. I am a Canadian living in Paris and I relate to so much of what you've gone through. Remember, life is supposed to be an adventure. It's all part of the fun.

Friday said...

I think when you find true happiness in life, it's natural to worry that one day the rug will be pulled out from under you. This happened to me too when I first moved over and it lead to a lot of self-sabatoge that, thankfully, didn't ruin things unnecessarily. I think you'll feel better once you're back and have concrete evidence that you're not just dreaming.

Also, mr (or ms) you-don't-know-me-but-I-know-you is kind of creeping me out a bit.

Friday said...

Oh wait - I just understood what that meant. Sorry, anonymous!